...i trust myself...only me...

2009-07-31T04:28:00.000-07:00

...hey people...i am back...got miss me a not...
...have came back to clean the spider web up...but when ever i feel like...i were close down cause i were get bore very easily...
...okie...i never thought that i were still enjoy school...but now...with a very new group of friends...is really very difference...
...i am so glad that i had make this decision...
...okie...this is just what i feel...and i shall state here first...
...SO THIS MEANS THAT IS FOR ONLY THOSE WHO WANT TO READ AND THEN DO NOTHING ABOUT IT AMD NOT COMMENT ABOUT IT...
...okie...really alot had happen and i have no idea where to start...
...okie i shall start with the holidays which is like so long ago...
...okie...so my holiday have been fill with dancing and dancing...
...really everyday...is really really very great...
...the last week before school start...
THE CHONG PANG SCHOOL OF DANCE HAD FINALLY OPEN!!!!
...then when school start...so bore...thought school was going to be like before...but it did not...
...it was really great...with all of them...really enjoy...laugh and play...really great...
apparently i am really liking this then before...and i should really be the one who sacrifice at first...
...i really should...probably i should not deny the fact...
...okie...then school...everything...enjoy play...study dance...
...okie...i think i should end here...shall come again when ever i feel like...

2009-05-29T07:26:00.000-07:00

...hello people...school hoilday le...
...happy...okie...today school was still okie...not bad...but not peaceful at all...sad...syazwan very noisy...talk non-stop...jenny...i shall find all the dinosour for you...i deprove...sad...nevermind...i were work hard toward my gool...and i know that i can do it...
...today after school...
...when to help mstan at thomson...reach around 2+ cause jalene and selina told me at they were start at 11...so i thought of going down to see what i can help...then...when i reach there is nothing for me to do...so the three of us just slack there...i was watching the workers...they were fixing the barre...slack and slack then finally...work...that was around 3+ going 4...then do do do...then put the flyers into the brocher...then it was done...and jalene ans selina was counting the bear...very cute...have toto...then also have the nut cracker...the mouth were move onne...so cool...then mstan reach...then blow balloon...and hang the bears...we thought of putting the set...one is string the other is chain...then the stupid double sided tape was not strong enough to hold the chain so we change our plan and put only 1 set...then we even get t-shirt...i were get the picture of the shirt and the bears and even how the place look like...tomorrow...and then mrs june lee came and she brought us cha siew bao...very nice...then mstan bought drinks...i took the ice peach tea...then off we go to chua choo kang(p.s.dun know how to spell)...took a cab there...give give give...then mstan say eat...and we went to new york new york...i order the fry fish then have fries....then very pain...my teeth...then when home...took a cab with ruxuan and huimin...then mstan took cab with lala...tomorrow not going to crester to dance...going over to help mstan...okie that all...very tired...

2009-05-27T05:40:00.000-07:00

...hello people...
...let me say this first...
...okie...what ever...white flat...surrender...
...and for your information i am not going to play as i dun fit in...and i also dun care what ever you are going to say so post and blog all you wan...
...okie people...my life...today did not really have things happen...
...sad...today in class was quite peaceful...cause zhongxin never come and so syazwan sit at takcong sit and then i dun wan sit with tekcong so he sit at zhongxin place...very quiet...very nice...i wan to sit infront...chao taller then me also sit at second row...i short leh...i wan in front...
...during math lesson syazwan very noisy and i was also not in the mood to really talk...have been reading most of the people in my class the lip this few days...very bore...so read...not really paying much attention to teachers this few day...have been very emo...but having been putting a fake smile...but what i wan is just to have the holiday and dun let msdina to know and so i were have 1 less problem...okie...that all...

2009-05-26T01:26:00.000-07:00

...hello people i am back...
i dun wan people to talk about a very good friend of my so i shall post...typing very slow but still nevermind...
...question i would like to ask...
...so what if you get higher in most of your subject then me
...so what if your standard of english is higher then my
...so what if he is helping me
...so what...
...for god sick you there saying that you are tired and sick of it then you there telling everyone that i am at fault...i am the one who did the so called 'BRAINWASHING' i am the bad one i am the one who lie...and i always lie
...whatever i dun care...i am the bad one i am the evil one...i am...everything also my fault...all this time all this fight is all cause by me...now you happy...see this post have the feeling...happy feeling...then if you wan this then i tell you what...i dun wan to play...i am very sick...i lose...white flat...enough...not just sick but is dying not wanting to have it any more...what ever...you can have the prize...so what the prize...'her'...then have her all you wan go marry her...what ever you wan...i dun fit to be there then i should not hang in there any more...i dun fit...trying to fit in were only cause pain...i am having to much pain that i wan to give up...never one to get back in...really sick of it...i am really very tired of it...not even wan to patch back like i say forcing to fit in were only cause pain...pain...
...why can't i just die off...this world is so hard to live...so hard to live...why can't people just do what they one...like me...i wan to dance then every day what ever fill me is dancing...nothing more...not even friends...because it just cause problems...
...problems are filling my life and i just wan to jump down the building...go to the place so called 'hell'...they were then torture me cause i 'lie' alot when i was a human...they were 'BRAINWASH' me like how 'i' 'BRAINWASH' people...they were cause me alot of problem and give me pain...TORTURE me...
...i shall get what i 'deserve' and they get to live happily ever after just like fairy tales...the bad one always lose and the good one were always have happy ending...
...now i am the 'BAD' one...i 'should' get what i deserve...
...them as the 'good' one were have a happy ending and then everyone were come tell me "irene dun bully the both of them anymore la"
example...leeson ng...came to me and tell me to stop bullying 'her'...i am told him back why dun you ask 'her' to stop bullying me...forget about it...she is so cute...so pretty...everything better then me...of course people were like her more then me...as under them i am the one who is having attitude...they have never seen the real attitude...
...forget about it...no point saying or typing it out...cause she is the so cute one...i not cute ma...i not pretty ma...right...'she' is the MOST PRETTY MOST CUTE ONE...i lose...

2009-05-25T04:25:00.000-07:00

for god sick...people human here...
as you can see irene injured her wrist...
ok here what i wan to say for today...i am truly disappointed...with what i have seen from some people blog...i think irene have been very kind to that few people as she did not wan their names out...nevermind i were just follow instruction...what ever people...i believe by then you were really know who the one who is doing the 'BRAINWASHING'
as now 'she' is the one who have been doing the talking and my dear irene have not even say a word about it...she just kept quiet...you all say that you all have suffered alot during the time then i shall really give a piece of my mind telling you how much she have been suffering...not only you all cried...she drop more tears then you all she cried on friday night from the night till the next morning...she really cried her heart out...you say that she is trying to win your sympathy...are you sure...if it is like this then she were be asking people to do something to you and then go to school and tell everyone talk to everyone shout around make sure people all know that 'you' are the one who is 'brainwashing' people around...for god sick...and for the other 'her' please dun change your story...for god sick dun twist it around...i also think that you were understand my standard of english i told you not to go around telling not telling is twisting stories around and you just dun understand...dun understand then tell me...i dun mind explaining it for you again...100 times also not a problem...i did not really like to scold bad word but i cannot really stand it now...why...i dun understand why is it so hard for you this kind of ....... to get along well...nevermind i dun really wan to talk about it...all this is only going to hurt irene even more and she is really very sick and tired of all this fight...very...post all you wan she is going to close off her blog anyway...not really a point opening it...

AND FOR YOUR INFORMATION...PLEASE STOP HURTING IRENE IN ANYWAY YOU HAVE BEEN DOING CAUSE I AM REALLY GOING TO BEAT YOU UP EVEN IF IRENE DUN LET ME...I AM NOT JOKING...GO CALL THE POLICE AND PROTECTED YOU 24 HOURS...OR NOT ABLE TO GET THE HELP FROM POLICE THEN WHY DUN YOU CALL YOU SISTER CAUSE SHE IS ALWAYS HELPING YOU IN THIS KIND OF GIVING TRAFFIC AND PROBLEMS TO OTHER PEOPLE...LET ME TELL YOU ALL...REALLY BE CAREFUL...

2009-05-23T05:45:00.000-07:00

...okie...i am not really in the mood to do the posting so he shall be doing it...

hello people!! i am EDWARD!! your so called 'human'

ok...i shall not be posting but i am here to answer some question

question and answer time...

1.she think that she was air?

-that how she felt at that time

2.who was the one going out for recess without you, me and someone

-is she was not feeling being left out she were have join you all. is not that she dun wan she just have this thinking that i have others friends why must i go with friends who have been treating her like nothing

3.whom was the one whom said that she don'tcare about her chinese results

-yes she dun really care about it...but she did not wan her total to be pulled down because of the subject which is simple but she dislike it

4.you think that we could read mind is it?

-maybe...cause you all everytime choose the time when she is really having problem and then create problem

5.don't you think you are very unreasonable?

-if she is really unreasonable...then let me tell you...you are more of unreasonable...when people unhappy then you were think that she ignored you all do you all know what her life have been how she had overcome those thing from her life how much she regret choosing that path...the path that cause her life to be so emotional...she had so many thing you all dun know so many thing she never even tell anyone

6.You, your ownself, stop communicating with us first and you Bloody hell say that you think that you are treated like thin air?!

-let me ask you if you feel unhappy you just happen not to talk at the point of time were you really still answer that question that your friend are asking you

7.Does this even make any sense?!

-yes there is sense...why dun you put yourself in to others shoe...at that point of time you were understand all of this thing

8.And i'm Bloody hell very angry about this. How many times have this happened?

-not only you are angry...there is people who even want to beat you up for treating her like that...if is not irene let me tell you...you were be badly beat just because you have hurt irene with any method you have use why dun you ask yourself how many times had this happen...at the very first time i know about you i thought you are those kind of people who were not really care about all this...but i was wrong...i am very disappointed with you

9.How many times do you want Miss Dina to tell us to give in to you?

-do you think she like it when your msdina ask question...is like you msdina is always bias...she is always helping 'her'

10.Do me and 'her' have to Bloody hell give in to you this time round?

-then dun give in...let me tell you she were really prefer to have others friends then YOU

11.I'm sick and tired of it. 'she''s sick and tired of it. People around us are sick and tired of it. So, you think that we are the ones whom won't study? Mind you more than half of all the subjects we get higher than you. Then when we go for study groups, you are the one whining about hoe noisy it is. You are the one whom slack when we when to Mac to study. Don't Mother Fucker tell tales about us.

-LET ME TELL YOU...NOT ONLY YOU ARE SICK SHE IS FREAKY SICK FREAKY TIRED...SO WHAT IF YOU GET HIGHER THEN HER...AND WHEN DID YOU ALL GO FOR STUDY GROUP...THE ONE AT MAC...THE ONE WITH ALOT OF PEOPLE THE ONE DURING BREAKFAST...WHAT THE HELL THIS REALLY MAKE ME WANT TO SCOLD BAD WORDS...AND BY THE WORDS YOU USE YOU SOUND LIKE THREATENING HER...FOR GOD SICK...YOU DUN EVEN FIT TO TOUCH OR EVEN SCOLD OUR DEAR IRENE...DARE YOU THREATEN HER...LET ME TELL YOU...

BE CAREFUL OF WHATEVER YOU SAY YOU TYPE EVEN YOUR EYES...

2009-05-22T05:11:00.000-07:00

...hey people...
...today here to post again...cause i free...finally friday le...so happy...
...today i felt like i am air...she treat me like i am thin air...what the hell...nevermind...i have thought about it...i shall not go with them that much le...i think i shall go with people who can study and were study...then this were cause me to force myself to study...
...yes...i were work hard toward my goal...
...today when causeway with shueli jenny amelia and glonee...then the two of them go home then me shueli and jenny when to slack around...eat ice-cream...then slack slack and when home at around 4+...did not buy anything...must save money...save save...i can do it...
...just now was talking to lymen...from 4-4...in msn...he is from basketball from our school...i think he just happen to add me without knowing who i am...and i just happen to accept him as a friend...
...okie...today shall be till like this...end me post...

2009-05-21T03:59:00.000-07:00

...hey people...
...feel quite good cause no more depress...joking la...i just feel like doing a new blog...this blog shall be my lalalalorlorlor world...i were try to post everyday...if i am free cause i were try very hard to study...i want to go to express...so work hard...JIAYOU...
...sad...i did not get very well for my mid-year...all just past...and all did not meet my expectation...the most well done was my maths...was 74...1 more mark to A1..sad...never mind...i shall work harder...
...i thought of changing my study method...cause i did not really excel with my old study method...so now...i thought of changing it...
...today
...ms dina talk to me...i shall not elaborate on it...
...anyway...PE lessons very much today... and I dun know how insane my group members went...nadiah was like totally crazy...'kanggeeks' you all rock...seriously love our 'kanggeeks' performance... and not to mention our pledge!!...it was totally awesome...
...okie...this is for today...